Three friends... Three blessings...

Brandley M.M. Ngcobo, Pinky N.J. Ngcakani-Ncula and Vuyolwetu M. Malgas

Where do I begin talking about you, my dimpled friends…lol! All three of you, with the most beautiful smilesJ.

One thing I know and am sure of is that God brought you into my life. He handpicked you for this chapter of my life. The pinnacle chapter of my story. You know in life, we need accelerators in order to move forward. Those people who will, sometimes without saying a word encourage and motivate you to move up. They will push you without pressure to greater heights. They will bring out your best character and personality. They will bring out your dreams and passions to the surface, all without interrogation (ok, Pinkzo not sure ngawe aphaJ). Just like the three wise men that visited Jesus with gifts at his birth. You have come into my life, at the time of my rebirth. Bearing gifts. Each of you has made a notable contribution in making me who I am this moment. Just by being yourselves and living your lives. Most of all, by answering the call of God ngobomi benu and into mine. There are just no words that can explain how much gratitude I have ngani in my life. What joy having you has brought. It’s just all an overwhelming feeling. And yazi, it shows me the way and just how much God loves me… so in short… Ndiyanibulela ngokuvumela uThixo andithande ngani.

Brandley… my dearest friend from the netJ. Though I have not met you, it feels like I have because you have touched my heart with yours in a great way. In sharing your story in your book “What’s your story?” you gave me the inspiration to share mine. You made me realise that my life has a purpose, that it is a story and it’s one worth sharing. Also that the time to share it is now, while I am living it. That I should not let fear of inadequacy; unworthiness or failures stand in my way. Today, I know that I was born to make a difference and I am pursuing that dream. You gave me the push to want to break free from the holds that society may have had over me. To realise the giant inside of me and release her to the world so that the world may benefit from me having been born and lived. To be the best Pumza that I am meant to be because there will never be another and none can share my life story the best as I would. To look for and grab every opportunity that presents itself to me. And that there’s no great height I cannot reach.

You have and still continue to inspire me. In the decisions I make, I remember that “every choice and decision you make is always the right one if you make it”. And therefore endeavour to be careful in making the decisions so that I am not left with having to deal with harsh consequences. So, in living your life, you have motivated, taught and helped me in heading to the direction of my purpose in life. And for that I thank you Mr Ngcobo. Thank you for listening to the call of God ngobomi bakho. May God continue to bless and use you in touching our lives…

“The dawning day of success is within your reach; tell your story today while you have the time. Live for your ideals and pursue the truth, seek knowledge and wisdom at every corner, give your share to the world and hope that it will make the world a better place. Look beyond your limitations and embrace every being…” ~ Brandley M.M. Ngcobo

“While you live and live with meaning and purpose, opportunities will present themselves, oceans will carry you to worlds unseen (more opportunities) and towards the end; your life will gather speed like a steam train rolling downstream with no breaks.” ~ Brandley M.M. Ngcobo

“I am finding meaning with every step and so I wrote it down and this is what it means for me:

I resolve to live honestly, fairly, positively, humorously, and in so doing.

I shall learn, motivate, teach, love and help all those in which our paths cross and strive to be the best that I can be, in order to become an example to follow. I will remember that I control my choices and actions and in so doing: I shall remember that consequences shall flow from my choices and actions and I dare not forget to take responsibility for those choices, actions

and consequences with an aim to learn from them.” – Brandley M. M. Ngcobo

Sis’Pinky… yho!!!  Wena uyingelosi yezulu emhlabeni. I do not know where to begin ngawe nje… I never thought that I would have this kind of relationship with you. I thought I would just be “one of your patients” but yeah… God had another plan. Your faith sisi… a Doctor with mountain moving faith. What more can any person ask for? (Pity you’re not my doctor anymoreL) Had it not been for your faith, I would be anticipating my next routine HIV tests. Fearing finding out if the CD4 count is high or low and if the viral load is increasing or not (yho! The stress that would come with that...). You partook in one of the greatest miracles of my life (my healing) and you continue to allow God to use you to deliver the greatest breakthroughs of my life.  Your love and zest for God motivates me to yearn for Him more and more. To seek Him in everything I do. You have opened my eyes to see and experience the love God has for me. To see who He sees in me and long to be that person. You have taught me to rely on Him for everything. Never in my life have I felt such a connection with God as I do now.

When you speak (uyangxolisa ke moss), you speak only good and positive things over my life. You have demonstrated the heart and mind of Jesus… (Though He loves me to bits, He doesn’t encourage isigezo). It is like you see His perfect plan for my life and you continue to call it into being. You have shared so much of you and your life. And through your story (still makes me cry ke), I am more confident that God has a plan for my life too and when I allow Him to break me, melt and mould me. I will become the best me (God’s me).

You have taught to me face the challenges that life throws at me with a victorious heart. I remember when I was going through the most painful time in my life you told me “do not cry but groan. Let no tears fall from your eyes. God sees your heart and is fighting for you. Do not cry, but let the groaning of your Spirit speak to your Father and He will give you comfort” You have made me realise the strength that is within me, the strength of Jesus. You have taught to how to approach the throne of God’s grace with boldness. How to speak and prophecy greatness over my life. You have taught and motivated me to let go.  To stand strong in the roughest seas… to sail through with confidence, knowing that I will for sure get to the other side of the ocean. You opened my eyes to the peace of Jesus. You were there when my eyes saw unspeakable scenes and my heart went through the greatest turmoil. And you kept telling me that God is still there and will sail through with me. That He was only removing all that which should be shaken off my life in order for me to move to my next level. To my new heights and to my God ordained destiny. Thank you for loving god the way you do. Thank you for living your life for Him and following the example of Christ. May God bless you and shower you with more wisdom and strength to carry out your assignment in this life.

We learn to lean more on God when we are shaken. We learn to see Him as truly trustworthy, that He never leaves us nor forsakes us. These truths are tested in us when we are going on unstable and unpredictable waters. Jesus is all that He says He is that we all believe. Yet there is another dimension when we go beyond believing to actually trusting because we have known Him experientially. So, in the coming uncertainty that this year will show, rest in the boat with Jesus. There will be unprecedented turmoil in life, unlike anything 2010 and 2009 had taught us. All those were a sample of the reality that 2011 is to become. There will be signs in heaven, signs in the seas and on earth. All that is man-made will be shaken and will be found wanting. Do not even begin to invest much in them. All that is solid will be put through a moment of quaking. The true foundations will be revealed as all that will remain standing, will be the only thing that cannot be shaken. For those who are after the mind of Christ, rejoice, Judas is leaving. There will be 11 of you left, and great shall be your peace. No longer shall you be sitting in the presence of the enemy. No longer will u be stressed by the thief that is Judas. Judas will murder himself if you allow him to go. Otherwise he will murder you. Allow him safe passage. He must die.

~ Pinky Ngcakani

Vuyolwetu… oh petunana ke yena ke mani… mntanomncinci… Daddy is yet to tell me why He used usana in teaching me some of life’s greatest lessons… Through you, God has taught me to receive love and not feel any obligation to return it. You loved me (still do) with the purest of love. He has also taught me how to care for another human being. To welcome someone into my heart and my home. Through you, I am able to welcome being appreciated, being a good friend. I am now able to appreciate my “crazy side” (it’s good to know that there’s someone crazier than I am, lol). Looking at myself through your eyes has made me fall in love with the person that I have become and am still growing to be.

“With age comes different needs, a need for a play-time mate and one for sharing life lessons.”

~ Vuyolwetu Malgas

I’m glad to have met you at the time when we needed more life lessons than play mates (I don’t think I’d keep up with you, kr!). Your strength is amazing. To have endured so much and yet you still stand strong in your walk with Christ. As young as you are, you have such a great zeal for God. Your innocence and your purity makes be appreciate the blood of Jesus, His death and His resurrection.

“Some of those I call friends. They have come into my life and somehow managed to fit in where they needed to. Like a puzzle, tucked themselves into my life.”

~ Vuyolwetu Malgas

You did exactly this into my life. You fitted in like a puzzle. And yes, you just went ahead and tucked yourself right into my life. And for that I will forever be grateful. Wanga uThixo angakukhulisa, akugcine ebungcweleni baKhe.

So to you my friends… I take off my hat, bow and say... Thank You!!!

Much love and respect

P

The Battle is never ours but the Lord's

The Battle is never ours but the Lord's

In 2 Chronicles 20:15 we find the word of God saying, “Do not be afraid! Don't be discouraged by this mighty army, for the battle is not yours, but God’s”.

No matter if the problem is like facing a large giant like Goliath we can have the same response as David, “the battle is the Lord’s” (1 Samuel 17:47)

Sometimes it is good to seek counsel from others. Whether friends, family or fellow Christians. However, if the person whose counsel is sought after is unable to deliver godly counsel. It will be like shooting yourself in the brain if that advice is put to practice. People who are born again and filled with the Spirit of God are able to give counsel you can trust (when led by the Spirit of God). These people may not have an official title like Counsellor but they have the wisdom of Christ. The characteristics of these individuals will include that:

◦They love the Lord and love others.

◦They have been born again and have the Holy Spirit filling their lives.

◦They are characterized by the fruit of the Spirit (love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.)

◦They have the heart of a teacher and are not control freaks.

◦They encourage you to not only listen to them but also to hear the Lord for yourself.

No matter what we go through, God promises to be with us. We shouldn’t try to go through

them on our own. He will strengthen and protect us. He promises to take us by the hand and walk with us through the toughest situations. He promises to never leave nor forsake us.

Isaiah 43:2

2 When you pass through the waters,

   I will be with you;

and when you pass through the rivers,

   they will not sweep over you.

When you walk through the fire,

   you will not be burned;

   the flames will not set you ablaze.

God promises to sustain us in our times of trouble and weakness. He promises to be our Rock and our strength. And He never breaks His promises.

Psalm 55

22 Cast your cares on the LORD

   and he will sustain you;

he will never let

   the righteous be shaken.

We shouldn’t  try to carry all our cares on our own. By casting them all upon Him shows

our trust in His care. He wants us to do this because He cares deeply for each of us and

for all our concerns in this life.

1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

The Great Architect

In my heart You have a home

When we consider building a new house, we have all these ideas of how we want it to look. The material to be used. The architecture, the finishing touches. The paint on the walls, the flooring. If we want wood or tiles or carpets. We know how big the main bedroom should be, to accommodate the furniture and to cater better for the activities zakhona. The bathroom, its location, convenience, colour scheme and all. We plan the kitchen, making good allowance for movement. Catering for ezalapho izinto. We know the necessary appliance we will need and where they will be, for easy reach in time of use. We know the ins and outs of the house before its even built. Already we see it in its completion stage. And we wait patiently as it is being built. With the builders, referring to the plan every time to make sure that all is built according to the plan. Constantly reporting back to the Architect to make sure that all is well. And to sign off some things as surety that konke kulungile.

Now if it happens that your house is not built 100% to your specs. You have the option to either discard it and have another one built. Or you take it... Go back to the drawing board. Contact an interior designer and you do sorta damage control. Gruesome isn't it? Lotsa work and money to be spent. Makes one angry I can imagine... Yeah... I know... Nonetheless, you do it cos you love your house. Its yours, your dream your creation... So you will redecorate it until it meets your deepest desire. Until ithi ncoooo kulandawo. And when you look at it, walk into it you are happiest to call it a home. Your home....

Psalm 139: 13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. 16 Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

God planned our existence before the beginning of time. He knew where our curves will be. How our legs would be shaped. How big our eyes will be (like mineJ). He knew how our smiles will be. He knew how we'd breath, talk, and walk. He knew how warm and caring our heart will be and enabled our arms and hands for the function of holding and comforting. He gave us soft and gentle voices that we may soothe others with words of comfort. Some of us were given authorative voices so that they may be able to rebuke when needed. Each and every part of our bodies and being was planned in order to enable us to do the task that we were created for.

God could already see what we would become, provided that His plan was executed to the letter. He had a specific plan for each and every talent, trait, and physical features that He put in and on us. If we would look at our bodies now, this moment and ask Him why He made them the way He did. We’d be surprised at how we have been abusing them in doing something that was not in His plan (just a thought).

Now, with God being the Architect and the Master mind behind these complex creatures ezingabantu. He laid out the plan. But had to hire and entrust builders to execute this plan of His by bringing this dream of His into being and execute it. Make it come to life and live to its purpose. The builders are our parents. They try their best in following the plan, sometimes they omit to consult the Architect which results in mistakes and diversion from the initial plan. Sometimes, they consult but misunderstand the instruction. But in the end, the product does not come out exactly the way that the Architect has meant for it to be. Now, with God not being much happy with the end product He has two choices… either to discard this creation or do damage control. Depending off course on how valuable it is to Him. Because we are valuable and because He knows what His plan is for us.

Jeremiah 29:11

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Therefore He will do all that it takes to mould and shape up to the vessels that will carry this plan He has to completion. He will do all that He can do (and us willing to yield to) to make sure that we live to that plan. That we experience this plan that He has for us.

So He sends us another Builder (Jesus). They go back to the original plan. Check what has gone wrong and see how it can be fixed or redone and who to employ in order to do the work.  The Builder employs His own Interior Designer (Holy Spirit), whom He knows that He has worked with before and produced great results. They break what needs to be broken, melt what needs to be melted in order to get the final product that God intended.

Jeremiah 18

1 This is the word that came to Jeremiah from the LORD: 2 “Go down to the potter’s house, and there I will give you my message.” 3 So I went down to the potter’s house, and I saw him working at the wheel. 4 But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him.

It does not matter how much damage has been done to the creation. Sometimes it is so damaged that it loses its shape so much that it just cannot be recognised. One may not even be able to make out what it was or was supposed to be. But even then, the Architect still sees the hope; He can even see what else He can now add to this masterpiece. It takes time and effort. It needs energy and patience. It comes at a cost. But the Architect knows what He wants His creation to be, and would bear all costs, including sacrificing His only Son.

In short… kinda:-)… We have been planned and purposed for greater things. However, because of how we grew up and the choices that we have made along the way, we have deviated from that plan. We have been nailed, banged, chiseled and painted in the wrong places with the wrong tools. We have been scratched, scrapped and cracked due to negligence and carelessness. But the Potter, the Builder, the Interior Designer are able to rebuild that which has lost shape. They are able to put worth back to that which has become worthless. This time, a better product is guaranteed to be born. You see, the Holy Spirit redecorates us, rearranging our lives, our being, our emotions. We become new creations. All the damage that was done is no longer visible, cannot even be traced.

2 Corinthians 5: 17 Therefore if any person is [ingrafted] in Christ (the Messiah) he is a new creation (a new creature altogether); the old [previous moral and spiritual condition] has passed away. Behold the fresh and new has come!

May the Holy Spirit of God redecorate my heart and make it a worthy and well manned place for Him to dwell. Because in my heart, is where His home is...

P

ALLOWING GOD TO COMFORT YOU

ALLOWING GOD TO COMFORT YOU - Dated 11 May 2011


Corinthians 1
3 All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of all comfort. 4 He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. 5 For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ. 6 Even when we are weighed down with troubles, it is for your comfort and salvation! For when we ourselves are comforted, we will certainly comfort you. Then you can patiently endure the same things we suffer. 7 We are confident that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in the comfort God gives us.

I am sooo moved by this word this morning. Really… So many times when I went through hardships I always asked “but why Lord”. Sometimes to a point of identifying a candidate who is, in my eyes worthy of such a trial. I would cry day and night. Asking the same question over and over again. Getting to the conclusions that I did something wrong so I am being punished, or that God just doesn’t love me anymore. It becomes such a depressing and painful process. Isolation becomes the only way to cope and that’s where all sorts of negative thoughts come to mind. Maybe I should take revenge, and if that doesn’t bring any immediate relief then the next thought is maybe if I wasn’t here things will be better. So suicide becomes the most attractive and practical and guaranteed method to end the misery. The thought that God is in the process of doing something great through me never crossed my mind. Let alone the thought that I could help someone else from my experience. It’s always been about me and how I am not loved or not doing right. I mean how could MY pain be of benefit to anyone… Really now…why should Pumza hurt and cry for someone else’s upliftment, encouragement, strengthening? Just not fair moss. But that’s the questions that goes through our minds when we have not even the slightest idea of what God’s plan and purpose for our lives is. When we don’t know Him as we should. When we don’t have a tight relationship with Him. So in that light (or should I say darkness) I discovered that at the time when I didn’t have a relationship with God. Everything was about me, myself and I. Was selfish even to the point of self-pitying. It felt good because I was looking out for myself. Protecting myself (ironic I know, protect, suicide.. Eshe!!!). The main thing was that I was in charge of how I dealt with my pain. And the way I handled it was to be beneficial to me, and only me… and just the thought of that made me feel in control.

Now Paul, is telling me something else. That,
2 Cor 1: 5 For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ. 6 Even when we are weighed down with troubles, it is for your comfort and salvation! For when we ourselves are comforted, we will certainly comfort you.

So this means to me. First I need to have a great and tight relationship with the comforter in order for me to see my troubles in a different light. In a light of benefiting others. Second, once I establish that relationship. I have to be confident in Jesus to a point that I rejoice at my troubles for the more I suffer, the more God will shower me with His comfort. This will bring me closer to God. Experience His love and grace more. Thirdly, I will only be able to comfort others if and when I, myself have experienced this comfort from God. Clearly you cannot give something that you haven’t received. You can’t teach something that you don’t know. You can only pass on what you know personally. What you have experienced…

Now that I know what I need to do, how do I do it? How do I begin to build this relationship with Christ? How do I experience God’s comfort? And how do I pass it on to others?
The first step to starting a relationship with Christ is accepting Him into your life as your Lord and Saviour. So that you may experience His love and care for you.

John 3:16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
Romans 10: 9 If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.

Second step is that, now that you have established a relationship with Christ. You must ask Him to fill you with the Holy Spirit. To guide and convict you and to take total control of your being and life. The Holy Spirit will lead you to prayer and the reading of God’s word. That is when you allow Him to renew your mind. For our growth in this walk Christ is dependent on how much time we spend with Him. Talking and listening to Him.

Romans 8: 11 And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of his Spirit who lives in you.
Romans 8: 2 because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.

Third step is repent and forgive. Repenting is not to get your act together" or to "get religion" or "fly straight"; as if we could. Repentance requires taking in a whole new point of view; looking at it God's way. God simply asks us to turn. This is the way we accept His gift. When we do, certain outcomes are promised. If we don't, or we "turn back", alternate outcomes are promised. This you will only do through the help of the Holy Spirit.

Luke13: 5 I tell you, no! But unless you repent, you too will all perish.”

Then forgive all those who have wronged you. When you accept Christ, you become a new creation. The old is gone with all it’s things. Now, being a new creation who is filled with the Holy Spirit. You cannot harbour negative feelings of resentment and unforgiveness. Also, you have now received the gift of forgives, through grace. You can extend the same forgiveness to those who have offended and hurt you. Showing them the love and forgiveness of Christ. My Pastor said that forgiveness is giving up your right to get even…

Matthew 6:14 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 15 But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

To experience God’s comfort. He has to be the centre of your world. You have to make Him your only hope. You have to rely and trust in Him and only Him with everything. Nothing is too small or petty for Him. In fact, the smallest looking problems are the ones with major negative consequences. You have to be rooted in Christ such that the character of Christ is seen in you. You have to be confident, so confident in Him that you that nothing can break you because of the One who lives in you. So this means that, whenever hardships hit you. You look unto Jesus who promised to carry your burdens as the only One who can help you through it. You rely on His comfort only. You rest and take comfort in the knowledge that He is for you.

Matthew 11: 28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

When you have experienced and know God’s love and comfort. You are then able to share it with others by sharing the Gospel about Christ. Sharing your experience with Him with others who may be going through the same troubles you did. When you share how God has helped you, and you become a living testimony. People will sure want to have Him in their lives too. You know when people hear of a good sangoma, how they so openly and enthusiastically refer others to them testifying of how they were helped. We have to, need to do that about our Jesus.

I know the comfort of God. I know how it is to lie in His arms and cry and still find peace in my heart. I know how it to kneel to pray and have no words coming out of my mouth but just tears down my face. And suddenly feel and overwhelming feeling of peace and comfort, tears dry in an instant and know in my heart that everything is alright. I know how His voice sounds when He says, “my baby I love you. Don’t cry sana Lam, I got this”. I know how it is to be tempted and through it all, feel His arms around me and hear His voice saying “my grace is sufficient for you, you are more than a conqueror”. I know His comfort because I know Him. Do you know Him? Do you know Jesus? I mean really, really know Jesus?

If this note has touched you in any way and you have not accepted Jesus as Lord and Saviour and you want to experience this love and comfort I am talking about. Please pray this prayer. It is good to have a witness with you. Someone to agree with you as make this decision and give your life to Christ. if you have no one to be there with you. please inbox me your number and I will call you and we can pray together and I will stand in agreement with you… below is the prayer that you can pray…

Dear Father,
I now believe that Jesus Christ is Your only begotten Son, that He came to our earth in the flesh and died on the cross to take away all of my sins and the sins of this world. I believe that Jesus Christ then rose from the dead on the third day to give all of us eternal life. I now confess to You all of the wrong and sinful things that I have ever done in my life. "Lord Jesus, I give myself to You, for You to be my only Lord and Saviour. I renounce and repudiate all other loyalties, and I desire no other Lord but You. Please come into me and take control of my life. Mould me to Your will and to Your use. I ask that You drive out all other spirits which conflict with You in any way. I want to belong only to You, to be subject only to You. I make this prayer to You, in Your name, the name of Jesus. Amen."

God bless you
P

Love as I have known it VS Love as I have come to know it...

Love as I have known it VS Love as I have come to know it - Dated 03 May 2011

Too many if not all of us are on a quest for love. Love to fill our empty lives, love to heal broken lives and hearts. We always look for the one person who will say the right things. Hold us when we cry and tell us everything is gonna be alright. We become willing to give up everything we have and all we are just for the temporary relief that this one person can bring because, yes…they can bring relief but only for a short while. However, what I have come to realise is that, no man is willing to give love without expecting anything in return. So because we become so desperate for this love and attention. We sacrifice our values, our principles, our hopes and our dreams. The sad part is that, though we sacrifice and give, no guarantee is given that we will have this person in our lives forever, through thick and thin. Even in marriage that’s meant to be forever, forever is not guaranteed.

So many young girls lose their purity to boys who have no intention of making them wives (how could they, when they’re only boys?) in the name of making love. We find girls and women with unwanted pregnancies, abortions and HIV because the only way to prove their love to these men is that they have sex with them without protection. Women are physically abused in the name of love, “I love you too much that’s why I become so jealous about you”. And we accept it because we are desperate for love. We become accustomed to being lied to in the name of protection “I cheated and hid it from you because I knew it would hurt you. I love you too much to hurt you like that”. We accept gifts and all kinds of material things as love. It becomes okay when the man is never at home as long at the credit cards and nice clothes keep rolling in “I give you everything you need, money, a house, a car, what more do you want from me?”. We accept all these lies and behaviours as substitutes for love. It becomes such an irony when this love we desperately needed to heal us, fulfil and complete us brings us pain. It hurts us more and open wounds that are deeper than the ones we had. Leaves us more handicapped. More vulnerable. More broken.
So one asks… Then where and how can we find love that will do all these things. Is such love even possible? Is there even a point in loving if this is the result…and the answer is YES, YES and YES!!!!
Now, what is love? I mean the true meaning of love… All I have is LOVE IS GOD AND GOD IS LOVE!!!!

God is love (1 John 4:8). God is the embodiment of love. Love is the very essence of His being.

Love comes from God (1 John 4:7). God created love. Love is a divine attribute, or characteristic, of God. The essence of God’s nature, and of a godly nature, is love. Love is more than a feeling. The love of God is a way of being.

Love is sacrificial, love is giving, and love is unconditional.
“For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life” (John 3:16, KJV).
“Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends” (John 15:13, KJV).
“In this was manifested the love of God toward us, because that God sent his only begotten Son into the world, that we might live through him” (1 John 4:9, KJV).

The love of God is what completes us. What fulfils us. He made us. He knew us before we were even conceived. Who will know best what our hearts need when they are broken? Who knows best what completes us? What fulfils us and what makes us feel safe and secure? Only the One who created us. The One who formed our being. Our Creator. Looking for human love when what we need is God’s is like taking an I-Phone to Alcatel to have it fixed, replace broken parts if need be.Oh! How we could apprehend the depth and width of His love for us. His gentleness. His care and kindness. His desire is to wipe our tears and bring joy to our hearts. How He looks forward to running to us, to answer our call. To catch our tears before they hit the ground. How He wants to hold us tight and assure us that everything IS okay. Lord have mercy!!!! We are lost…

I have come to the realisation that unless we come to a point where the love of Christ is enough for us. Where He completes us and we feel no need or desire or dependency for human love. Because really, how can you love another human being completely when you yourself still need to be loved. We have to acknowledge and lean on the love of Christ. Trust in it. Then, when His love is the only love we know. It will become the only love we are able to give. That is when He will freely release us to the heart of another person. To give and to receive the love that He has gave us. And He will also know who that person is because He would have prepared both of us for one another. As we get to know Christ and we become rooted in Him. He moulds and shapes us. And He knows which perfect shape will fit into us to make the one that comes from the two.

It’s great to love and be loved. It’s great to be in a relationship where you know that you are loved and adored. Where you are cared for and respected. But it is greater to be in a relationship that is ordained by God. One that He forms with His hands and breaths on His Holy Spirit. One that He is a foundation of. I want to make some man happy one day. And I want him to make me happy too. But it is only the happiness that comes from Christ Himself that will make any marriage a happy marriage. So unless he can love me like Christ does, and me love him like Christ does… It clearly means we are both not ready for any kind of relationship…

Stay blessed
P

ASK FOR THE SUPERNATURAL...

ASK FOR THE SUPERNATURAL... FROM THE SUPERNATURAL GOD - 26 April 2011


Romans 12:2 (Amplified Bible)
2. Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you].

2 Corinthians 5:17 (Amplified Bible)
17. Therefore if any person is [ingrafted] in Christ (the Messiah) he is a new creation (a new creature altogether); the old [previous moral and spiritual condition] has passed away. Behold, the fresh and new has come!

Our God is a supernatural, divine, transcendent and superior God. Now, we being made new creatures in Christ, also makes us being with supernatural power and authority because the Spirit of God dwells in us.
God has given us divine promises in His word. And daily as His children we have the opportunity to ask for those promises in faith and receive them… He also says in His word

Mark 11:24 (Amplified Bible)
24. For this reason I am telling you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe (trust and be confident) that it is granted to you, and you will [get it].

What I’m getting at is that. Why is it as children of the Most High God continue to do things the worldly way. Even to the point of expecting God to deliver in a worldly manner. God does not do things like the world does. If that was the case then we wouldn’t need Him. Yes, He has given us a mind and wisdom to make choices. Identify what we desire and ask Him for it. We do not tell Him how, but we ask Him to grant us what we are desiring, believing that He will give it to us. Faith is what pleases Him. Faith that He will do what He said He will do, without any help from us. We ask for jobs, yet we look for internal connections, call in favours to make sure that we get the job. Where is the faith in God there. We ask for marital spouses, but we continue to flirt, buy affection of the people we wish to be partnered with. How is God to receive His glory when we ourselves take over and do what He is to do?

His ways are higher than our ways, His thoughts higher than ours. We can never in a million, trillion years comprehend how He will do a certain thing. And yet we continue to help Him deliver that which He had promised… The word of God says that we must not do things like the world does. We must not seek to have explainable testimonies. Because we serve a God who does impossible things. I for one want a supernaturally divine miracle, I want an unexplainable testimony… so I will dare believe God for that and will not accept anything that comes in any other way…

Stay blessed
P

HEALED!!!! From HIV positive to HIV negative

HEALED!!!! From HIV positive to HIV negative... Dated 22 February 2011

Praise the LORD, my soul;
All my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the LORD, my soul,
And forget not all his benefits
Who forgives all your sins
And heals all your diseases...

I am at awe of what my God, my Father, my Healer has done for me. Words cannot begin to expain how I am feeling right now. God is great, He is awesome. He deserves all the praise that I can give. My heart is singing praises to Him...I am shaking with excitement and joy as I write this note. I just cannot contain myself. Blessed be the God Almighty...

I have been asking for the supernatural to happen...for the unexplainable...and behold. My body is HIV negative. After 10 years...I am 100% HIV negative...Ndiyabulela Bawo...

HEALED TO BLESS

GOD HEALED ME TO BLESS YOU - Dated 17 February 2011

I find myself not being able to stay quiet anymore. For I believe that God has healed me so I can bless you, and you and you...

Some of y’all may know that I am HIV positive. Diagnosed in March 2001. It has been an amazing journey with lots of challenges but by God’s grace I can attribute none to my HIV status. One thing I do not have is a sad story to tell. I have heard people labelling themselves as HIV victims and survivors. But I am not a victim, I am not a survivor…I am an HIV conqueror…

When I was diagnosed in 2001 My CD4 count was 585 with a viral load of less than 40 copies/ml blood. Today, my CD4 count is 691 and my viral load is less than 40 copies/ml blood. This is with no treatment…this is through several suicide attempts, panic attacks, emotional stress, depression and (not proud of this) but not so healthy eating habits

So one may ask…HOW? And my answer is…not by my might, not by my power, not by my wisdom but it is all by the Spirit of the Lord. Another may ask, but what do you mean then by healed when the virus is still detected in your blood…My answer is that when we are injured physically, we acquire a physical wound. We feel the pain and that is how we know that we are injured. However, when the healing process starts. The pain goes away and the wound closes and becomes a scar. Which is a reminder that I was injured here…when we are broken emotionally. The wound is in our hearts and it is not visible. We cry, we become depressed and this is how it is shown that something is paining deep inside. But when we start the healing process. We feel at peace. We smile and we feel joy inside the same heart that carried the pain. The scar that is left is just the memory…but the pain is gone

And so it is so with me. I have been healed of the disease but the virus is the scar that it was here. No pain, no stress…just a memory

As I sing the Psalm 103
Praise the LORD, my soul;
All my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the LORD, my soul,
And forget not all his benefits
Who forgives all your sins
And heals all your diseases...
May you also know that there is victory in the blood of Jesus. There is power in the blood of Jesus. Power to save and power to heal. I am healed and I will not be quiet about it…Praise be to God my Healer

What He has done for me, He will do for you or your loved one…He is just one Call away John3:16
¹⁶For God so greatly loved and dearly prized the world that He [even] gave up His only begotten (^[a]unique) Son, so that whoever believes in (trusts in, clings to, relies on) Him shall not perish (come to destruction, be lost) but have eternal (everlasting) life.


This is the beginning of my story

I thank you..
Pumza