Tuesday, September 13, 2016


1. You know when you're going through something and someone just comes and adds on to your stress or misery and you be like "I Sooooo don't need this on top of all I'm going through right now". And you just want to run and lock yourself up and not have to deal with anyone just in case they add on to your troubles? Well... that's what discrimination does to HIV positive people. We have so much to deal with already without having people add on. While we manage our illness the best we could. Its inevitable to think intensely about stuff. Like 'I wonder if I'll live to be 60', 'I need life insurance', 'I wonder if I'll ever have children', 'what will happen to my kids if I ever get sick', 'how do I tell my.......'

HIV does change a person's life. There are things that could have been easy to do or acquire but now they're close to impossible. That alone is enough to set a person on a slow train to a painful and depressive place. But we accept, we strive, we move on and we grow from strength to strength. We carry the load the best we can and walk with our heads held high, to a place of hope and freedom. And that walk, that walk is the most fulfilling... well until someone drops the discrimination bomb on us. They be like...

2. 'She's unclean'. Unclean your heels. Like seriously :O ? Maybe you should look in the mirror before calling someone unclean, especially because of an illness. Really now! And its unfortunate that our Christian community still struggles to believe that the blood of Jesus that has cleansed them of their sins has the power to save and heal an HIV positive person and cleanse them just as much. Its great for us to know that the blood of Jesus does not discriminate.

3. I know what you did. You've been having sex and now you have AIDS. Well, AIDS your foot. I had sex nangok and I contracted HIV so what? That makes you better than me? Oho! Does that really give you the license to judge me? Shame on you. While MY infection was sexual, someone else's thoughts on the matter don't bother me one bit. However, some people were raped and contracted HIV, some were faithful wives sitting at home waiting for their husbands, some were innocent children born of HIV positive mothers, some were accidental infections. And wena you find it fitting to place everybody under the same umbrella and judge and discriminate. Mnxim

4. It could be the very same person you were nasty to because of their HIV status that will come to your aid. Whether through you being affected or infected. I know, I've been there. I've had people, some closest to me gossiping about me, some even predicting my soon coming sickness and death but I'm still standing. And as I stand, I am rendering HIV support to them and their loved ones. Some have found me to be the only person they can disclose to, and I understand shem, how do you disclose the very same thing you've been gossiping about in someone else's life to the very same people you were gossiping to? That will mean whatever names you called the others by apply to you too. AmaXhosa athi 'unyawo alunampumlo'

5. Your attitude can change a life, it may increase a life span, it may boost someone's confidence... it may save a life. While we can't do anything to change our HIV statuses, you changing your attitude may do a whole lot more good for many. Change your attitude, change a life.

6. The scars left by stigma are deeper than the scars caused by HIV itself. Have a heart, heal a soul... end the shame. It really does start with you...

#letstalkhiv

Saturday, June 11, 2016

Jesus, the only man who can love you truly and unconditionally

Maybe your ex-boyfriends would fill up a double deck Greyhound bus or a triple carriage train. Maybe your current ones can fill up a quantum because you have one taking care of each aspect of your life.
• Minister of Transport
• Minister of Finance
• Minister of Housing
• Minister of Tourism
• Minister of Home Affairs
• Minister of Communications
• Minister of Health
• Minister of Education
• Minister of Defence
• Minister of Labour
• Minister of Security
• Minister without Portfolio
• Minister of Religion

In the process of being with these men, maybe you have found yourself with 5 children with different fathers, some off which their real fathers’ identities are not known. Maybe you contracted HIV in the midst of it all because at some point you became a bit comfortable with the one who seemed to be nicer and gentler, or you were just careless because there was no point in right living for you anymore. Maybe you just can’t do without sex anymore, hence the different ministers with their time table to serve all your needs.
Maybe, just maybe you see no worth in your life anymore. Maybe you do not see yourself as one worthy of true love, true and unconditional love. The love that says:
• “I love you as you are”.
• “Come to me and I will be all you need and more”.
• “I will wipe your tears and you will cry no more”
• “I forgive you”
• “I will renew and restore you”
• “You are worth more than rubies”
• “I died for you and it was worth it”

I just want to tell you that, there is a Man who can and who does love you this way. He longs to love you just the way you need and deserve to be loved. He longs to take care of you and your every need. He wants to protect you, heal you, provide for you… He wants to save you.

He cares not about how many have been inside you, He wants to cleanse you inside out and make your body His holy temple. He cares not about how many have used you but wants to use you for His glory and for His Kingdom. He cares not about who has and how they have bruised you but wants to heal you with the bruises He incurred. He cares not about you nails because He took nails through His hands and feet for your salvation. He cares not about your lashes because He took lashes on His body for your healing. He most definitely cares not about your make up and your clothes because He is the One who covers your nakedness and removes your shame.

He is the Son of the living God. The One who is, was and always will be. The Word, the beginning and the end. The Lamb that was slayed. The friend that sticks closer than a brother. The One who loves you more than life. His name is Jesus Christ. And He is waiting for you to open your heart to Him.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Change your position

When things go all wrong and seem so out of control. We need to remember that God is always in control and that He is able to restore back to us what we have lost. He is also able to restore fully what has be destroyed and seemed impossible to regain shape again. 
 
When we change our position, and choose stand at the bottom of the cross and to look up to Jesus for answers, instead of the places where we found none; we will find ourselves in a more peaceful place. A place of hope and in a place of restoration.
 
Change your position! 

Hope Restored - The Book

"Hope Restored" published on 31 October 2015.


"Hope Restored" is a collection of my motivational articles which are based on my journey as a born again Christian and divorced single mother of two daughters who is living HIV. I share my journey with God and how He has walked with me through the hardest times of my life. This book is meant to be a testimony of the love of God in my own life which I am sharing with others in order to bring hope to those who have lost hope and encouragement to those who are on the verge of giving up on life. It is meant to touch those who are looking for that little light at the end of the tunnel or that silver lining on a dark cloud. It is my hope that it will not only touch their lives but also change them for the better and give them hope to face yet another day and to know that all things are possible with God.


I also share how the gift of positive thinking and faith has helped me deal with my HIV status and how I gained strength when I faced challenges as a woman living with HIV. I share how the love and support of family and friends has helped me stand and continue living even when life did not seem to be worth living. And with this I hope to highlight the importance of having a strong support system in times of trials and that no one person is meant to live life alone.

This is my story, and I know that it is a story of a life lived and one worth being told. Everyone has a story and as we journey through life, we are writing our own stories and ones that need to be told and shared with the world. There is someone somewhere who is waiting to hear our stories so that they may gain hope; there is someone in need of our stories to try again and take another chance at life. So, whatever your story may be, don’t go to the grave with it. Live it, share it, tell it, sing it, and preach it; I just did. It will change someone’s life for the better.

The book is R130 plus postage. It is obtainable directly from me on the following contact details

Facebook: Pumza Mooi
FB Page: Hope Restored
Whatsapp: 0789019001

Stay blessed
P